I’ve been getting carboplatin, bevacizumab and doxorubicin since January. I had a PET scan last week and the results are in. My tumors are growing instead of being shot down, dying and vanishing. What the hell? That is not the news I wanted to read. I feel fine other than shortness of breath. I figured that was a result of my declining blood counts. My white count, hematocrit and hemaglobin are all down in the tank.

I’m frustrated. I see my oncologist on Wednesday which is 2 days from now. I hope he has a plan and a change in treatment. I refuse to do the same one and have horrible side effects for nothing. I was so hopeful. Mentally, I was out of treatment and planning a trip. How naive of me. I should know better.

So now I have to answer all the questions. Ugh. I know people mean well but I’m tired of it. What do I do now? Everything is up in the air. Stay tuned for the answers on Wednesday. Namaste

Edit: Update

I had my appointment with my doctor and I should know he’d have an answer to this madness. He said he ordered the PET scan too early. We both forgot I didn’t start treatments until January. That gave this ugly beast 31 extra days to multiply and feast on the cancer cells. My tumor markers (which are blood counts) are declining nicely. My daughter was with me and we all took a deep breath. I’m ready to continue my fight. On to the chemo room.